Release

I woke up this morning finally knowing that I had to let go of all my anger before it kills me. In its current capacity, it does nothing but burn me up. It does not argue well and I know more than ever how it further dooms my marriage - something I am desperate to save, though it may be too late.
I am terrified. I feel like I am suffocating on loneliness.
But I understand that I have to be what I have to be. And so I will. I just have to figure out what that is.
I wish I believed in god right now. I wish I believed in anything.